X

2006-04-24T01:31:00.000+08:00

MOVED;
ive rotted here for too long.

2006-04-23T02:58:00.000+08:00

HELLO. very early huh.
i got a new address again.
this time for real..
maybe. shat why so fickle.
/points to pickle. your fault.
express my undying devotion to mxpx. or their album.
http://pokinattcha.blogspot.com
;blueprint for disaster. i haven't loaded the skin.

2006-04-20T18:27:00.000+08:00

seveneleven is like, super ultra coo(!).
i tell you i tell you. after napfa me ying lailing chiying (it rhymes please?) yingjie willa dav tammie nat etc went to waffletown. the waffles there are like super shiok.
anyways, ying-lailing-yingjie sick please. what use straw suck egg? egg and mocha?
whoawhoa very coo please, you guys could set up some freak shop
call it uh, the dings?
shat i so creative. and and and there was a basket of bananas in 7eleven.
got tag on the basket saying

GRAB THEM NOW!
BANANAS AT 99c.

very amusing. we were choking at the counter.
damnit, so corrupted. but still. veryvery amusing!
okay whatever. bye.

2006-04-18T18:04:00.000+08:00

scgs won hollaback!
i should just run all over town plastering happy yellow sticky notes with that.
go suan other schools. shat i'm such a happy bunny.
we had like, a sponge and a bar of soap.
they? professional trainers and sponsors. damnit unjust please.
hope they crash and burn on the jackass plane.

i just remembered. the hall where they held hollaback
was the same hall where goodcharlotte was held about a year ago.
wha what fate.
we quite lucky. cut queue get good seats said hello to carriechong and watched clickfive.
plus skip prizegiving. super ultra amusing. what three teammembers.

anyways just now was out with YINGJIE!(youlistening?heh)
we saw this coocoocoo(!!!) tshirt. got like, youJACKASS behind.
should wear it and parade around asking people to look at your shirt.
iwant. and pokinatcha is not stocked yet. ihateyou ry.
buy from amazon forgot your dear friend.
somemore dontwant lend me. how could you. i so hurt.

uh my birthday coming up, (uh)
i shant hint. lets make this easy.
i want pokinatcha. get it now.

2006-04-14T02:58:00.000+08:00

this is crazy.
its three in the damn morning and
me and willa have done only quarter of the membership sign.(!)
i'm never gon go to the beach or look at a palm tree ever again.

2006-04-12T18:35:00.000+08:00

HAPPYBIRTHDAYMELON!
ahh yes sorry, no millions of cash or watermelons.
i made something though! very.. coo(!)
AND. ill treat you to haagen daz melon sherbet. very coo(!) seh?

anyways! HOLLABACK!
super ultra happy. played squash to get the ticket.
i have this annoying habit of scanning all my tickets so;

so exciting please. like, after om go indoor with our ILOVEOM tshirts and a dysfunctional crab.
talk about coo(!). fine i shall stop this.
OCTOPUS help me book four seats! and ill get you an iloveom tee too. you know you want it.
ah and spontaneous tomorrow. ill just die after choking on those bananas the instructors insist we eat. very creative way to die. maybe theyll give our team more points for morbid creativity. then the jellybeans would go iowa. you guys hearing this? i died for iowa. damnit, so self-sacrificing. love me come on.

2006-04-09T14:01:00.000+08:00

squash finals thingy tmrw.
skipping school! ohyeah.
and band.
hiatus; a week. hello om, hello jellybeans.

Sometimes its black
Sometimes its white
Sometimes she's wrong
Sometimes I'm right

2006-04-07T20:55:00.000+08:00

today was super ultra film worthy.
om seems like such a formal ceremonial competition.
but damnit, the behindthescenes is absolutely america next topmodelish.
not kidding. what happened to team spirit and working hand in glove?
the teachers need cooperation courses. theyre worse than us.

but anyways, JELLYBEANS; I LOVE YOU!
mich&eliz thanks for buying me for getting me food. iloveyou.
and the rest, iloveyoutoo. we screwed today's performance but
super fun. i had fun. i loved it! (/note; glue on the crab's eyes)
and octopus! thanks for the waffles. and coming to support me. if laughing is considered moral support. hahas. iloveyoutoo?
wha very corny seh. i'm such a happy person.

amusingly, today rocked.

2006-04-04T18:06:00.000+08:00

the actual odyssey competition is on 15april.
and i'm dying to go hollaback. crap
wheres our script wheres our items wheres our costumes
i wonder what made me do this.
a yellow lollipop. damnit, i'm weak.

anyways. i love grey's. so good, so good.
and octopus lent me her sawloser album!
SO GOOD. cross my heart hope you die
know it all and down in flames.
ILOVEYOUOCTOPUS!(chokes)
jimmy super ultra hothothot.
support homegrown bands!

2006-04-02T13:12:00.000+08:00

it's so easy to say okay.
the lure of a lemon lollipop:
a day of superficial happiness:
and on to the delusion of going to iowa.
we work our ass off for eight minutes of judgement?
doesnt sound too great now.
i hate triangles, i hate lollys, i hate jellybeans.
but yeah. i'm deluded cos
i do want to go iowa.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
scgs is in finals for hollaback!
singapore indoor 15th april; feat. The Click Five.

2006-03-30T17:37:00.000+08:00

SIMPLEPLANONEYEARANNIVERSARY!
this was how close we were to the stage;

ilovesp!

2006-03-27T20:24:00.000+08:00

i need to buy more yellow sticky notes.
then like, cover all the toilet cubicles in school in sticky notes.
itll be fun yeah? brighten up peoples day with
happy yellow sticky notes.

three more days!;

[SIMPLEPLAN'S ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!
[lost season II!

2006-03-26T13:21:00.000+08:00

ihateadvertisements.
all they do is pollute the tv screens and lie to you.
SUCCESSWORKSHOP-guaranteed to make your child excel in her studies!
only delusional people get taken in by this crap.

ANYWAYS. last friday suckedsuckedsucked.
like, after school, band prac, after that the ass workshop?
i don't think a workshop where guys jam hula hoops up their asses
and where instructors tell you that F.E.A.R. may stand for fuck and run away-
can help me.
the instructors think my attitude sucks.
thankyou?

i think it'll be very amusing if i get
killed in a car crash freak accident!
no more perverted preaching
just another wasted investment.

I've got all these problems
None with solutions
Been in and out of some nice institutions

2006-03-19T13:32:00.000+08:00

i got brokeback mountain dvd! (sings)
mountain dew in my head and on my mind
mountain dew in my hand and i'm feeling fine
darn, i'm such a happy person.

anyways, just discovered there's actually a homework page;
http://vodkalimey.livejournal.com/32610.html#cutid1
wha, i so touched
someone bothered to put it up.
but i've only done three items on the page. today last day of hols.
hokay. mug now. bye.

Discontentment turns to anger turning sour every lonely hour
Yeah depression
Failed relations turn over a new leaf will it be a four leaf clover?
Yeah obsession yeah depression yeah

young&depressed.ilovemxpx.

2006-03-17T00:52:00.000+08:00

you said my house was dangerous.
i so hurt. ihateyou.
heh. now i tell you. your house no better.

and just when you thought nothing worse could happen.

damnit, COPYRIGHTINFRINGEMENTMELON&LUMPY?
what intellectual property.
and. where's my lumpysherbet. how unjust.

anyways. msn sucks. but its such a great way to declare your love. ahh what teenage romance.
i love taking screenshots of corny crap.
i'm saying this so that no one will dare open a window with me ever again. hehs.
mm. teenage is a superultra lian magazine. but damn,
very entertaining.
"bAbEz I hAv A cRuSh On EuU. LeTz GeT HiTcHeD. LuVve- uR LaOgOng'

ahh. since you told me yours (MSNILOVEYOU.chokes)
i tell you my deepestdarkestsecret.
i've been lying to everyone. (quotequotemeredithgrey)
i am a fraud.
a poser, a fake.
i'm not lumpy.
the real lumpy is a guy.
excuse me while i hide under a table.

2006-03-14T00:52:00.000+08:00

i'm too tired to even swear.
i lost my wallet once again, i deserve it, i should hit myself with a hammer.
i don't mind. i don't want anything back,
my atm, my cash, my cards, take it.
but its sixteen days down to the day.
the thing is, we won, we went together. all six of us.
not alone, not with one friend, not with your family
all six of us.
and just sixteen more days
i lost the only item that marked that day.

there's a 2005 magazine clipping on my table.
it's wet.

i deserved it. i am a jackass. i am not going to regret this.

"Lying is bad. Or so we're told, constantly, from birth. Honesty is the best policy. The truth shall set you free. I chopped down the cherry tree. Whatever. The fact is, lying is a necessity."

-Meredith Grey

2006-03-11T19:34:00.000+08:00

super ultra angry.
why isnt the tagboard not working. stupid box.
okayy. lets sing a song.
In the car I just can't wait/To pick you up on our very first date/Is it cool if I hold your hand?/Is it wrong if I think it's lame to dance?/Do you like my stupid hair?/Would you guess that I didn't know what to wear?
i didnt know i liked corny songs. ah blink182. ohh
redid my links. slightly.
onesy gathering! at chiying's house. 1715 monday. be there!

i'm a sucker for grapes. I WONT CHOKE ON THEM MELON. SEEDLESS.EVER HEARD OF THAT?LET ME GLOAT.HAHAHAHA.HAHA.HA.
okay. that was random.

2006-03-08T17:18:00.000+08:00

we got in. ass om.
how are we supposed to go "one fine day in jellybean island"
in front of all the schools at acsi.
let me crawl under a table and hide in embarrassment please
thank you.

22 days more to a super ultra exciting event.
what is it.
guess?

2006-03-07T16:42:00.000+08:00

say hello
to kermit the frog.
he is a puppet
but he's supposed to be a frog.
he pretends to be a frog.
but nope
not a frog.
kermit the fraud.

i would like kermit. to eat everyone that turned up for the oscars
hogging yesterday's eleven to twelve timeslot (REPEATS!?)
depriving one very dedicated fan of her
grey's anatomy.

I almost forgot to say something else
And if I cant fit it in I'll keep it all to myself
I almost wrote a song about you today
But I tore it all up and then I threw it away

2006-03-06T16:47:00.000+08:00

i'm supposed to;
get the melon&lumpy skin done? BUT I CANT FIND A SQUIRREL.
enlarge the domo. BUT IT TURNS UGGLY.
finish algebra sums. BUT TEST IS OVER? WHAT AM I DOING.
mm procrastination. and what am i doing?
reading grey's anatomy's synopses.
ahh kill me. go on
but ehh? i've achieved something;

Melon & Lumpy Foundation was established in 2005 (oh what history) through someone called Melon and another wonderful individual named Lumpy. However, these two very special people had further goals in life than to sell ice-cream, hence they turned their attention to dominating the world. As they have great acquaintances with squirrels and domos, these creatures hence assisted the two very special and amazing people in their quest to conquer the planet Earth. Unfortunately, due to their very low and sad budget, the two did not have enough cash to equip everyone with a bubble gun, hence everyone handmade their weapons. Do not underestimate the power of the stick. Or the nuts.
TO SIGN UP;
please leave your name behind at http://freakshow-.blogspot.com or here.
there are strict requirements in order to join the Melon&Lumpy army.
1 you must be a squirrel or a domo.
2 you need a stick or nuts. but;
3 bubble guns are the best. if you get that stuff in your eyes.. holy crap.

i deserve an award for doing this. credits to err ben&jerry's?

2006-03-02T11:43:00.000+08:00

i got sent home.
bloody hell. here i am rotting in front of the comp while
the rest are kayaking or rafting or rockclimbing or archering?
unfair. this is so pissing i want to shoot everyone with a bubble gun.
and i'm so sorry jane. i didnt want to go home?
but ohno, lumpy your temperature's 38.2. we dont want you to pass it to other students
cos you have flu and cough as well dear.
damnit. this is so unjust.
and i still have to do reflections. LIKE WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO WRITE.
I LEARNT THAT WE SHOULDNT FALL SICK BEFORE A CAMP AND THAT WHOEVER WHO MADE YOU SICK SHOULD JUST CURL UP AND DIE FOR HIS OR HER CRIME.
why does this always have to happen. last year i fell sick before exam?
now before camp. damndamndamndamn.
and i'll get suaned after this. "YKNOW. CAMP WAS SO FUN! THE BLINDMAN TRAIL WAS SOSOSO GOOD. TOO BAD YOU WERENT HERE. YOU MISSED OUT KAYAKING. SUCH A PITY."
i swear someone's gon say this to me. hypocrisy. hell it.

Cos the last thing that I need is somebody like you
to push me around and tell me what to do
I know theres a time and place where you can call the shots
but it's not here

2006-02-28T10:44:00.000+08:00

/delete
willa found my wallet.

2006-02-21T16:19:00.000+08:00

i'm damn sad.

so pro.

still have to paint this jackass of a hermit crab.

i'm not done. still got.

and how to study when theres 1)competition on sat 2)seven and a half loserly workshop on sunday with the ahlians who ToK LyK tHiZz AnD tH3y ThInK tHiZ iZ AbSoLoOtLi KeWl 3); looklook at my

math? super pro.
i should just go to a deep lake and drown.
goodbye.

2006-02-18T00:27:00.000+08:00

my first chinese test and i failed it.
CHEERS.!
the teacher's a twisted sadist la can.
she was so excited to announce the people that failed?
like HAO! ZHANGJIAHUI! (pause) BU JI GE! (yay?)
or maybe cos she likes me a lot. sleep during lesson.
one day when i feel very brave or
on the verge of suicidal
i shall ask for my (confiscated) evangelion book back uhuhu
LAOSHI! BA WO DE MANHUA HUAN GEI WO!

anyways. i think since it makes her happy
i shall continue failing.

how gracious of me.

lets pop champagne in honour of my first failed test of the year.
I LOVE CHINESE! I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT!
my ass.

2006-02-13T00:08:00.000+08:00

disclaimer.!; I'VE LOST MY WORKSHEETS.
IF YOU'VE SEEN THEM
please return
if i find you with them without returning them to their rightful owner
you're gon have a very fun time with my bubble gun
AND i'll kick the crap out of you.

hang on. i spy: a frog.

kermit ate my worksheets.
stupid frog.

OKAYOKAY. so i was bored.

2006-02-11T18:21:00.000+08:00

theres this WONDERFUL cybershop selling voodoo like plushies.
hell i want one. she can design too? looklooklook;

and here's the real deal;

i'm like drooling at it now?

anyways. i need to think of a good reason to pon the seven and a half tuition tmrw.

1 i need to study for my geog test 2 i need to study for my chinese test 3 my ass hurts sitting on the chair for over seven hours 4 i shall bring tom the tomato there and throw it at the ahlians 5 i called all the guys there a jackass and they have declared war on me 6 i feel that my time should not be wasted on such useless activities when i can spend the rest of my time plotting on how to dominate the world

BLAH. this sucks. listening to the rents perverted preaching makes me sickk.

i feel like hitting someone.

AH! i shall kick the crap out of tom.

violent tendencies? need therapy. uhuhu.

bye.

2006-02-09T18:34:00.000+08:00

i'm making a new skin. went deviantART find pics. the people there darn talented?
anyways.! instead of making a new skin. i came out with spiffy domo fanarts?
AMANDA. listen to thiss. HOW TO DRAW A DOMO. click here.
uhuhuhu.
and theres this incredibly pro guy. i love his work. ync.deviantart.
domo hoodies. I HATE deviantART. RAH.
i shall go fan hunting now.
toodles.

2006-02-04T19:24:00.000+08:00

someday i'll be rich and will kidnap you and make you paint my room.
i guess to kidnap you i don't need to be rich
but being rich is nice no matter what.
and perhaps with my oodles of money
i will then buy you a cookie for your efforts.

2006-01-31T02:28:00.000+08:00

230.
so screwed. car lag.

ah. happy cny!
malaysia rocked. they had fireworks and firecrackers everywhere?
bloody loud. i should have brought mufflers.
uhuhuhu. purple ear mufflers. sweet.

anyways. sandra oh won a golden globe.!
grey's anatomy. great stuff.
i cant sleep cos im deprived of it.
ahh. so touching.
okay. that was offtopic?

DOGA!
grins.

2006-01-24T15:14:00.000+08:00

TOM THE TOMATO.!
in school now.
cos my bloody rents locked up the comp room.
oh how i love them.!

helped amanda make backgrounds for her chi project.
i rockk dont i.
wanted t take screenshot of it.
but school comp. POKK. deleted paint? err.
sheesh.

What I thought was true/
Is made of fiction and I'm following the same

2006-01-22T15:35:00.000+08:00

HATSUMOMO.!

gongli is 95 pounds(?whats her weight.) of total hotness.
memoirs rocked. but verry long.
should have toilet breaks.
grins.
i shall express my utter devotion to hatsumomo.
even though i'm not worthy of you;
I LOVE YOU.!

okay. sugarrr high.
tmrw got tests.
time to hit the books.!
toodles.

POPCORN VOUCHERS.
can't live without them~!

2006-01-15T13:17:00.000+08:00

RA IS NICE.
there you go. grins.

anyways.! happy birthday to me. (sings)
Friday the 13th.
full moon that day.
a black cat ran across me the moment i stepped out of my house.
XD

2006-01-12T15:31:00.000+08:00

handed up my withdrawal.
this is the last time i'll ever step into the lc.
admittingly. i don't want to let go. but.
strange how handing up a piece of paper can make you so regretful.

anyways,
tmrw my birthday. falalalas.
happy birthday lumpy.
ISAYTOMATO!YOUSAYPOTATO!TOMATOPOTATOTOMATOPOTATO!ISAYPOTATO!YOUSAYTOMATO!POTATOTOMATOPOTATOTOMATO!

2006-01-04T18:14:00.000+08:00

HELLO.
i've been bloody busy since reopen.
hence the dead blog.
falalas.

ANYWAYS. today darn tiring.
run around in circles with freeking heels saying
HI. I'M FROM FLUTES. JOIN BAND. HAVE A CHOC. THANKS.
but ohwells. i saw two of my juniors.!
amusing. they came up and ehh yyou from rgp right. then i was like
YEH. YOU TOO! WHICH CLASS. JOIN BAND. HAVE A CHOC. THANKS.
how enthu. lalas. i must have freaked them.

tmrw still got jap.
whywhywhy. zzz.
i think im gon quit. first day alr huh?ing through out the whole lesson.

anyways. im pissed.
darn pissed.

mmmhm.
TOMYAMMARSHMALLOWS.!

2005-12-14T10:12:00.000+08:00

CHICKEN IN A SPRAY CAN.!
._."
aah. watched aeonflux with melon.
charlize theron. mm should be up for an oscar. heh.

ANYWAYS.
frosty the snowman was a very jolly soul.
we shall kick his ass and steal his nose
and leave him to rot in the cold.

XD

2005-12-06T16:32:00.000+08:00

i've decided not to change add.
tsk. fickle pickle.
takeshi kaneshiro so hot.
but in the movie he looks so ahbengish.
okay. off topic. ._."

my cell spoilt. stupid sim card.
deprived of comp and cell.
lumpy is sad.
i shall eat my worms for now.
toodles.

2005-12-02T12:54:00.000+08:00

back from camp
tired.
must credit them for putting in such effort.
but.
the sky's very blue today.

WITH YOU THERES JUST NO MEASUREMENT./
NO WAY TO TELL WHATS REAL AND WHAT ISNT THERE.
i really dont know what you want;

deprivation of sleep makes you kinky.

2005-11-24T16:46:00.000+08:00

posting again. my file's full. cannot save stuff. pissed.

jap illustrations rock.

2005-11-24T15:17:00.000+08:00

hellos. thinking of names for new add.
what elyn suggested;
elyncallsmeaflower.blogspot
and she likes;
lumpypackage.blogspot
ERR.
okays. its a war between
redwhip.blogspot AND
kermit-.blogspot
NOT. WHAT FLOWER THING.
go eat flowers.

2005-11-22T18:01:00.000+08:00

LAYOUT CHANGE.!
I THINK IT LOOKS SICKENING.
BUT.
THE POINT IS TO SICK EVERYONE OUT SO
YAS.
EAT WORMS.
OKAY. IM GOING KINKY AFTER UPDATING LINKS.
WHAT A CHORE.
ALL YOUR FAULT points- KEEP CHANGING ADDS
GO DIE. EAT WORMS.
HAPPY YULETIDE. MERRY CHRISTMAS.
a tad too early but ohwells.

2005-11-09T15:33:00.000+08:00

hellooo. my dear blog is like. absolutely dead. nyahahaha.

Santa is coming tonight
And I want a car, and I want a life
And I want a first class trip to Hawaii
I want a lifetime supply
Of skittles & slurpees and Eskimo pies
I want a DVD,
A big screen TV
Just bring me things that I don't need
Cos now it's Christmas
And I want everything
I just can't wait
Christmas
So don't stop spending
I want a million gifts, that's right
Don't forget my Christmas list tonight
Cos now it's Christmas

hinthint. this song so cute. my christmas list. (not full version).
okay. i shall leave my blog to rot for now.

2005-10-13T15:53:00.000+08:00

it's over; like, FINALLY.
(does a tribal jig)

HIATUS STILL.
back to maple; i'm sick of blogging.

bye.
in the meantime. go support ah5. get their albums!
good stuff. not kidding. all thanks to ra :D
using this extra blank space to be a walking aadvertisement.
not bad.
okay. ignore the above. i'm going kinky after being deprived of maple.
GOODBYE.
i've not updated my links. go on go on kill me. grins.

2005-09-22T09:10:00.000+08:00

evangelion nine is out.~!!
after one-and-a-half year/s.
happy. happy.
anyways i was searching poems for lit when i saw this;

The year's at the spring,
And day's at the morn;
Morning's at seven;
The hillside's dew-pearl'd;
The lark's on the wing;
The snail's on the thorn;
God 's in His heaven—
All 's right with the world.

-robert browning.

and look.;

ironic. that song/poem thing was supposed to be very uhm. optimistic. look what evangelion did to it. grins.

anyways. i'm going on hiatus. time to wake up; my chinese needs help.

2005-08-30T16:06:00.000+08:00

hello.!
slipping slipping slipping. where should i be aiming? higher.
so many warnings not to slack. :D
one more failed history test and i'm history.
hurhur. so ironic.
ah but ever since ms quek came my marks improved.
does that indicate something? grins.
uhh. maybe cos i'm studying more. or maybe.! ...
aha. i think i've earned myself new adversaries!
okay whatever.

melon.! quotequotequote;
LUMPY AND VIM WERE AT PLAZA SING TOOO!
YOU NEVER COME AND SEE ME YOU EGG. mmpf. seeing electric guitars more fun than seeing dear old lumpy. wails and dies. wheres my pitchfork?

last friday pf sucked. what hiphop dance. but aha.! at least it was at suntec.! gringringringrin. after that lousy session of pf me-wenting-wenhui-gasps-lynn-claire went round the place. wanted to go arcade do ppd. but.! NO KIDS IN SCH UNIFORM WITHOUT ADULT SUPERVISION AFTER 6PM. what crap. then! lynn was sick of walking in a str line (gringrin.) so we went bonsai garden to err. rest and rubbish.? that place sucks. the stupid water fountain plooshplooshploosh how to talk. then we went times outside there sit on the floor. looked quite. tragic. we got names for each other.! so romantic. (grins and faints in horror.) seeseesee;

jiahui the JELLYBEAN.!
claire the JOLLYBEAN.!
wenting the RECYCLING BIN.!
wenhui the RUBBISH BIN.!
lynn the OSSAM--splutters-err.! i forgot. gringrin. LYNN.! remember?

so corny.

2005-08-25T17:32:00.000+08:00

freekin.! viruses.
stupid porno popups.
roaarr.
who invented trojan horses.
diediedie.! a horrible death you ass.
my last post until the comp is cured.
cry for me;

2005-08-17T13:35:00.000+08:00

ra next week is baka matsuri ah. i thought this sat. errr.
i know that some ppl cannot stand the sec1s.
but.! i didn't know to what extent.
now i know.
oh come on. don't judge us based on just one person.
or one group.
think the world of yourselves;
not everyone is THAT obsessed and infatuated with seniors.
fcuk us? fcuk you back.

2005-08-14T19:42:00.000+08:00

went kap after openhouse ytd with claire lynn wh wt.
i think we were veh noisy. (uhh. join clarinets-yeah.?)
uhm. quite understandable. why mine was the least appealing.
sniffs and wallows in self-pity.
my friends.! someone needs a tissue hinthint.
but wheres the fun without a little trauma?
fine. its not fun at all. ohwells.

i know a girl whos obsessed with a guy (more like seniors. ohwells!)
she talks for hours and still tomorrow
she'll call again and when he thinks that this could be the end;
she calls again
at six in the morning she waits at the door
he tells her to leave but still tomorrow
she'll be there again
she wont let go (oh so true.)

she doesn't care if he trys to ignore
he runs away but still she follows (nodnodnod)
she'll try again
she likes to think she'll get him in the end (OH! SO TRUE.)

HIGHLIGHT! white font ABOVE. HINT. ladida. might need a little therapy on how to handle uhh mentally unstable ppl. ohwells.

2005-08-10T09:35:00.000+08:00

i've been going through so many traumatic days just for it;
now it's over.
seems just yesterday everything passed-
syf. maddcap. sentosa.
then. handover.
and just a year ago i was still in rgp with guin and ra.
quite. unbelievable i survived.
there were times when i seriously regretted joining, but now i think about it-everything was worthwhile. i enjoyed myself most in band.
thank you; lynn claire wenting wenhui. ty for all the support-helping me solve my uhm-denial, all the happy moments?-at kap. or at the school track singing our stupid song lols. it seems as if as long as i'm with you guys, i'll always go hyper no matter how sad i am. same applies to wh right. ty. love you guys.
you; wake up and stop being so stupid. i feel so sorry for you. why do you let your uhm!-friends-take advantage of you like that? you're damn gullible. either that or you're plain desperate. i prefer the former. but. whichever reason. wake up; the island's calling, they want their idiot back.

2005-08-06T11:20:00.000+08:00

it's tomorrow~ lynn. making you even more excited? lols.

AMANDA~ get well soon. sprinkles pink! your fav color. fairy dust over you. lols.
shankoo so much for sending the sp songs even though your temp is 39d.
you da rock! tyty.

2005-08-03T17:20:00.000+08:00

ohhh god.
feel so guilty.
ARGH. every move i make is wrong.
regret;

2005-08-02T23:18:00.000+08:00

hello.
slacking. five chaps of zuo4ye4 completed get real. with a lot of holes.
forum review(s?) undone.
lit essay undone. overdue as a matter of fact.
OHWELLS! why am i talking abt hwk.
traumatised by geog and science tests.
my jap is waaaaay behind.
practically 'HUH WHAT?' throughout the whole lesson.
thank lord for yia kuan. (keke. thanks yk! for the notes.)
why am i back to work again?
errr. tendency to talk abt hwk.
frrreaky. must change.
SENTOSA IN ONE TWO THREE FOUR FIVE! DAYS.
UULALA~ highlight;
i <3 band!

2005-07-29T23:37:00.000+08:00

nine days;
band performance @ sentosa.
last time we're ever performing with the sec4s.
oh wells.
injured my friggin left arm today during marching.
someone hinthint. fell on me.
big bloody patch.
wonder why i didn't die.
everyone would live so much better without my existence.
esp someone who so obsessed with seniors. sniggers and rolls eyes.
it's over-
we're over-
just like in crimson and clover.

but maybe it never even started.

2005-07-27T17:37:00.000+08:00

is that a bean or a peanut.
this is the only conversation i can strike up with classmates?
hate awkward moments.
i'm pathetic.
everyday in class is just wonder-when-schools-over or band-is-in-four-hours-time.
went kap with wh and claire today. STRANGELY. very strangely. although they are not mates. can crap and laugh like shit to them over five hours and not feel out.
tell me whats wrong?

i don't belong at all.

failing history-

on the verge of failing chinese-

sucky geography marks-

ARE YOU HAPPY? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO DO THIS TO ME.

2005-07-23T16:53:00.000+08:00

ra aint it spiffy writing in white color?
hinthint. highlight.
american hifi. sounds so good.
now that you're gone/i'm moving on/you wrecked it all/there's nothing left to lose/except for you. (hell yeah)
I LOVE IT.
tyty ra for getting me hooked on ah5.
anyways. i wonder what do we have to do for openhouse. our lit project. looks very..uhm. abnormal. with green uhm-cabbages sticking out of it. uhhh. i rmb bringing that freakish board into the bus and everyone was like staring at me with that ERRR. face. i'm so entertaining.

chamber orchestra concert at acsi with wh and lynn later.
whoots.

2005-07-21T15:50:00.000+08:00

band announcement of posts.
quite. entertaining.
mm. august;
x performance@sentosa
x handover... ...
x national day XD!
x open house (amanda? our lit project? are the bushes dead.)
x health activity (?) willa~go canoeing. heck to the must-clash-with-cca thing. better than learning. um. yoga at planet fitness (?!) right. don't blame me if the canoe capsizes though. i was stuck moving in a circle the last time at new zealand canoeing. hurhurhur.
august looks good.

2005-07-20T16:25:00.000+08:00

gc concert.
joel and benji.
very entertaining.
specially benji.
billy was freaking coola.
but he didn't even talk.
they play better than sp.
guitar for we believe was darn good.
i want billy's shoes.

2005-07-17T12:04:00.000+08:00

damn sad didn't go s'capade.
third lang; all your fault.
ra you pebble. never ask me come along ytd.
wtf. i shall make it a point never to stumble upon that particular blog ever again.
pathetic how will some ppl resort to anything just to get her seniors attention.
thats the way; roll your eyes.

2005-07-10T12:03:00.000+08:00

maddcap was spanking~
i like flowers. XD!
for the many bloody days i had to go through since sch reopened.
those two maddcap days were the best.
sitting down on our school track.
watching the stupid glowball RTC and the starry sky.
rubbishing and singing. out of tune. XD.
haven't enjoyed myself that much.
eating lunch at petrol stations.
walking like drunkards.
sharing pancakes.
lynn+claire+wenting trying to teach me and wh the school song.
look what happened;
yellow and green are sc school ~~badge~~ school colors (?)
ain't nobody gonna be our match.
don't mess around with scgs school badge (?!!)
cos we are gonna ~~do our best~~ beat you flat. (so violent seh?)
no wonder my geography grades suck.
wth. test on tues.
GEOGRAPHY.
oh come on. rocks are stuff that you step on.
pointless memorising abt iggy rocks.

2005-07-07T15:01:00.000+08:00

one two fuck you.
maddcap tmr. something to look forward to after being stuck in teh class glooming the whole day. THANK GOD.

2005-07-03T11:45:00.000+08:00

full dress on friday.
wth couldn't tie the tie. (tie the tie? sounds so corny.)
turned square shaped. how interesting.
not everyone at the top are what you think they are.
PEBBLE AND IGGY ROCK or was it plutonic? lets go back to plaza nxt time, sit at the escalator benches with takeaways-burger king-and take a hundred photos of star shaped hashbrowns. XD

why can't anyone see past her.
she thinks shes always better.
quite. freaked to read abt ppl looking up to her.
but nvm. i'm a pushover. so let her bring me down.
willingly once again.
the higher you climb. the harder you fall.
we got the stuff ready.

2005-06-30T15:32:00.000+08:00

willa suggested that she was homo.
ERRR. aha. ahahahaha.
she lucky i had that lunch at pastamania with her classmate.
otherwise ya. snigger.
obession is a bad thing.
i feel so paiseh for her and all of us.
and i'm sucha pushover.
ngggh. lousy.
maybe i should confront her?
nobody ever listens anyways.
maybe the present will redeem ourselves?
by that time everything would be over though.
redemption for less than a day.
its not worth it. seriously.

2005-06-29T08:37:00.000+08:00

scholiday!
thanks to our spanking perf.arts. like band. n___n
if you haven't bought maddcap concert tics, please buy now! available at general office.
only $10 for matinee (half-price)
YOU BETTER BUY cos
I'M PERFORMING.
snigger. so ego.

wtf i don't rmb sitting in front of the comp watching suicidal happy tree friends.
first two days sucked badly. especially the first.
i want to work at starbucks. or coffee bean.
i like emily. everyone starts liking emily too.
T___T
on monday ms heng said she read some of our blogs.
and advised us to put pwd gates.
but that doesn't make sense.
so easy break in.
SOURCE.
CLICK SOURCE.
CLICK.
CLICK.
CLICK.
got the pwd?
COME IN.
T___T
going with lynn+wenhui+? to buy heels for our maddcap concert. and ____ _ ______ ___ ___ _______. they should appreciate us more. we're so freakishly nice and special cough cough cough yet we go unnoticed. but whatever. maybe its too late.

2005-06-25T20:19:00.000+08:00

quoteI;
tiara - MELO MAKES MONEY
lumpy - JIAHUI MAKES MONEY TOO
meloo - RARA HAS MONEY
let me add one more;
lumpy- I EAT MONEY TOO. CASH IS YUMMY.
XD i realise we are very corny.

quoteII;
mel got the guitarrr~ too ! hooray for money making melo:)
XP i got the mantilla. and its in my inventory rotting.

quoteIII;
oh and ive perfected the art of making voodoo dolls on paint.ITS SO KAWAII!!!!
do they work? i want to voodoo someone. but domos are more effective. XD HINT HINT.

guin told me that happy tree friends is gore and violence. HURHURHUR. the bunny chops off his friend's head. quite. strange. like THE RETURN OF THE SUICIDE BUNNIES. i like them. very entertaining. or maybe i'm a sadist. but its nice seeing little bunnies plotting of ways how to kill themselves rather than eating CARROTS? so contrasting.

oh god someone smoking marijuana downstairs. i feel sick. wtf.

2005-06-22T14:56:00.000+08:00

overtaxed.
all thanks to the geography text and the classlist.
only one week left and it's almost half gone.
and i'm studying.
procrastination is very very bad.
but the thought of starting again;
it sucks.
like the fact i had fought so hard
and thought that all my battles had be won.
only to find the war has just begun.
not a very healthy thought driving me to study.
oh please. i'm not a study nerd-at least, not yet.
but it's scary y'know?
when you don't do hwk-nothing impressive? yeah right if the whole class does it but you don't. its just. like you don't belong. always get that feeling.
and the fact that mates look down on ppl.
like WTF?
she only got like what, three points lower than you at psle and-
you put her down everytime.
what a bitch.
thats what really sucks in being in a good class-competition.
and when you're rock bottom in there.
i will drop.
restart over again.
maybe i'm better off that way. highlight b.lo.
competition+BIG attitude problems+points of one-sidedness ('i am always right, you are always wrong')+unability to accept the real truth even though they're right smack in front of you=jiahui's best! friend. HURHURHUR. shoot you with a arrow and watch you crash and burn more likely.

2005-06-21T16:03:00.000+08:00

ra you can't tag? mm. amanda you can't either? HMMMM. (whacks squawky hard).
gaia ppl are getting weirder and weirder. i got twenty PMs in a day cos i said random PMs were fun. ERRRR. then some guy gave me 1071g. cos i said i was questing for butterfly wings (which i already had bought XD!) SO NICE.
Melo Makes Money.(n_n~!!!!)
ra you very funny. alliteration. nOObs suck. keep flaming. i hate stretching of the topics. bleargh. and you tired gaiaing? >JOIN MAPLE STORY! kill mushrooms. mushrooms. i think it sounds stupid if you pronounce it as mush-shoom. very..odd. um. off-topic no? where was i. oh. its darn fun la go try. maplesea.com. then can see other ppl online and can fight with them. coola. btw. the "chicken and chicky guin am guinoony" was made by me and guin. damn stupid la. rofl. you're supposed to get louder and louder in the end. go go go try it out. XD

2005-06-20T20:15:00.000+08:00

very busy.
me and melo got a gaia shop.
melo's earning alotta cash. lucky.
avatar arts are cash bringers.
then maple story.
i like kicking mushrooms butts.
thats so violent.
XD

2005-06-16T17:52:00.000+08:00

chicken am chicky
guin am guinoony
ra am raooky
melo am melomelony
linnie am lintopusy
lets say together
chickyguinoonyraookymelomelonylintopusy
chickyguinoonyraookymelomelonylintopusy
chickyguinoonyraookymelomelonylintopusy
chickyguinoonyraookymelomelonylintopusy
chickyguinoonyraookymelomelonylintopusy!!!
shankoo.

2005-06-14T15:56:00.000+08:00

whole day spent on gaia. a first in many months. 2292g. I AM RICH.

guinny-ooon!-welcome back to singapore~(coos)

2005-06-13T17:41:00.000+08:00

third week of hols.
oh, my god.
why. why. why.
something's missing.
what?

2005-06-10T16:56:00.000+08:00

(taken from sp's concert dates)
06/12/05
Montreal, QC
Ile St.Helene F1- Grand Prix After Race Show

wails. sp no longer with gc. they'll be in montreal while gc blows up the indoor stadium in singapore. oh wells. decided on getting free standing-nearer to gc, and they crowd-surf in the moshpit. oohlala. linnie say we go find their hotel and STALK them. how ingenious. look at their hotel sponsors XD.

2005-06-10T14:07:00.000+08:00

last year. met guin at sentosa beach by accident. we caught this crab.

2005-06-09T18:17:00.000+08:00

i drums.
yesterday went with meloragaylechippylinnie to ps. at 2pm. then the movie-mr&mrs smith (go watch it) 4pm. so meramelo played drums. melo fever beat damn good. then she keep playing the same song ai4ni3-level; mediumx4. no fun! can memorise the beat already la. she keep challenging me choose same song one. stab you with pitchfork. then i got high score twice so meramelo cheesed for the cam. veh retarded la but lol. fun. high scores are fun. HAHAHA. teh movie was spanking. bradpitt+angelinajolie=perfect. their chemistry good. should get married XD! veh cool. love the rocket launchers. like haloII. damn coola.
escape rocked. flipper was wonderful. then the stupid haunted house LMAO. ra screamed thruout. so lame. take this.
me; (points) got coffin there. bet you its gonna spring.
ra; (speechless. too busy screaming abt nothing)
(the coffin springs out. HAHA. SO PREDICTABLE.)
ra; SCREEEEEECCHES LOUDER!!!
so funny. i was sandwiched between chippy and ra. both keep screaming. chippy kept saying 'lets get over this quickly, lets get over this quickly!!' veh cute. linnie was the direction-er. she was leading us. but we stuck at deadend before. then the stupid monster told us to moveit. LOL. then we don't want. HAHA. so fun. toiletpaperghost was lousy. never scare us.

alphaeight is SCARY. the tracks were given more OOMPH!-harder jerks, flimpsy bars to hold you, no doors-legs fly out, OOMPH-ER DROPS-with more butt effect. I LIKE. but veh scary.

then gokarts. chippy blew my guts out when parking. HAHAHAha. ha. why you laugh. painful seh. she banged my kart and i flew two parking lots in front. so fun.

'sleepover' at linnies. we didn't sleep. watched nightmare b4 xmas [JACK SKELLINGTON I LOVE YOOOOU~] uh haunted mansion and ten minutes (i think) of the house of sand and fog, which is, btw, M18. then played taitee (how to spell), drank milo at 5am in the morning and slept for one hour at 6 and woke up at 7. I THINK. so wonderful. my eyes all bloodshot already la. so wonderful right. ahaha.

this week rocked.

2005-06-07T09:17:00.000+08:00

why am i posting again.

2005-06-07T08:27:00.000+08:00

what i heard at comics connection that day when i was looking for habbo prepaid cards XD

girl1; have you read hentai? [me; T___T?]
girl2; uhhh. no.
girl1; go read. very nice. [me; (chokes)]
girl2; really? okay. where have?
girl1; (points) there. (points) and there. (points) and there. all very nice. go buy one and read.

X___X don't anyhow browse the sections of connection. look at the covers of the comics first lol. if it looks. uh. icky. then walk away. pokemon section is safe rofl. EVANGELION. stupid stupid gainax. after nine months. wheres my book9? screeches. i haven't finished watching my dvd even though. STILL ON CD1. WTH IS HAPPENING TO ME. i think i can't buy the OVA. nc16 rated for ------. fume. all comics already have it what. (with exception of those uh. winx. witch. etc) stupid vcds. fume fume fume. pita ten is 16.90 per book. daylight robbery. why do english versions have to have such annoying prices. another version the fushigi yugi damn fast. but also horrendous prices. grump. but the genbu version came out in english! whoo~~ 7.90! [pops champagne] but terrible la. chinese already book3. jap already book4. english book1. LOUSY.

why am i grumping about comic prices? thats stupid. okay. going escape today~i better go change now. yay.

2005-06-06T18:55:00.000+08:00

why life sucks.

suckers.
saying all the good stuff to your face
but once you fall they'll break the faith.

with all the soul-destroying lessons
tyrannical despots telling you their conditions.
everyone is all so conventional
shut your trap and be your own individual.

with the never-ending rivalry
get a life and stop comparing with me.
you're such an innocent angelic saint
while i'm treated with non-stop perpetual disdain.

you said you would turn up
instead i waited for an hour and a half
(you never came)
oh so you think its fun playing with me
but watch out cos i'm not letting you go free
(just like that)

i'm tired of all your rantings
is bringing me down really that appealing?
cos i'm telling you
from today
i'm not gonna hear you say
prejudiced comments.
i'm going my way
with no regrets.

2005-06-05T19:20:00.000+08:00

went to watch madagascar with ra and melo. PSYCHOTIC PENGUINS. anyways. my family were asked to leave the food court during lunch cos stupid mango was crying like shit as i didn't give her popcorn.
rofl.
so embarrassing right. heng i was eating lunch with ra and melo.
PHEW.
see why they need anger management and serious councelling?

2005-06-03T17:55:00.000+08:00

yay~finally finished my fourth layout.
pure satisfaction.
is it nice?
YOU BETTER SAY SO. haha.
i spent three days and a half doing this n_n

2005-05-31T15:39:00.000+08:00

my butt hurts.
we should seriously consider having butt-cushions for our flute section.
ouch.
anyways band for these two days. my mouth position still wrong. gaaaaaack. i'm so lousy. serene can play so wonderfully. grump. must practice more.
amanda you ordered the big package thing already. do i still get teh coffee bean cake?
YES.
nyahahaha. wenhui told me something veh amusing at kap. damn funny la. and sweet. ahaha.
i think by now there are ppl that have already finished their hwk. very disturbing. mrs fern say if i don't strive harder i will drop to other classes.
tralalalalala.
nvm. i don't think i fit in much in sy anyways~! i slack and procrastinate too much. and i'm not competitive. and uhh. i'm not hardworking obv. tests suck. ppl compare with you marks. when they get higher they go 'omg its so low' to make me feel even worse? then if i get higher i am absolutely not allowed to gloat or they will snap at me. how very reasonable that is.
roll eyes.
can't wait for escape+sleepover at linnies. one more week. [sry amanda!]
ohnono don't fcuk with mah heart.
i love that song.

2005-05-28T17:21:00.000+08:00

we just want acceptance. is that too much to ask for? i know some of us are sycophantic but it doesn't mean you can judge all of us based on that particular person. still expect us to pity you telling us abt illnesses and all that. like crap. n-o. no, heck no. stop crying. how can someone so sensitive be so insensitive abt what we're going through now?

2005-05-25T12:04:00.000+08:00

brilliant. stupid photobucket loaded my image.

amanda+deborah you guys so rock! thanks so much for the six months belated pressy. [snigger] <3 you guys! don't worry, the plant is now well rested on top of my drawer. and no mandi, i haven't dropped flip flap yet. i've decided to name it [drumroll~~] amarah. [amanda+deborah=amarah] wait. it sounds terrible right. out of convenience [and absent mindedness..you know i will forget names.] i named it chewbacca. nyahaha. star wars.
just joking. no names for the flipflap at the moment. suggestions?

2005-05-25T11:22:00.000+08:00

i cannot upload this spiffy pic. very peeved. shall try later again. anyways. feel weird after i landed on a web that was playing busted's year3000. that songs on cheryl's bday cd. reminds me of the times where we set on those ropes? it was so fun. and water bombs. but we couldn't play cos of the security guard. smelly. and the sp concert? 56 days since it passed. time passes really fast. seems only yesterday i stepped into sc la. almost six months already. half year gone. wasted away by me.
i need some serious self improvement courses. maybe i should go counselling with my lil sis? she's seriously disturbed. only five years old and already asked to go under counselling by form teacher, notorious for not wearing her yellow sch uni cos she thinks its ugly [?], the principal has even talked to her and encouraged her to wear uni, pons school etc. i feel veh paiseh even for my parents. i swear i wasn't like her when i was young la. gaah. my parents should undergo 'how to handle a spoilt five year old brat' therapy too. they have no idea how to handle mango. lousy.

went pastamania with deborah again. we ate this gross banana pizza thing. super ambitious of us to do that. then melo came. sheso generous. treat me and deborah-who she doesn't know-to haagen daz. melo you veh loaded ah. she was like 'aah!! ice creeam! i want!' me; 'you go la, so expensive. unless you treat both of us. nyahaha.' melo; 'yalah! on me! come!'
O___O?!
so rich. three scoops of ice cream, three tissues, three glasses of water and cushy seats + 'service' totalled a whooping $12.90. haagen daz pratically rips off students i tell you.

so long never gaia already. igonow.

2005-05-25T08:39:00.000+08:00

where's teh damned usb wire to transfer pics onto comp?

2005-05-19T15:46:00.000+08:00

we won't come back again
we're friends till the end
we'll take on the world
we just don't care at all.

today.
heritage tour. kinda soul destroying. how long would it take for june hols to come? another day, another big mistake. tomorrow will not be a better day. more like wasting a bit of my life once again. but thats good. Nirvana. nyahaha. i'm going cuckoo.

i never wanted to believe
that you could lie
that friends deceive

tmr sculpture walk. how many gazillion times have we been on it? always same thing. stupid M1 advertisement that bird statue, octopus at marina, ugly rococo golden 'man' sculpture etc. bleargh can't they come out with something more imaginative, like..bringing us to escape? or uhm sentosa beach to build sandcastles? gaaah.

i wonder what its like to be like you
to never even care how bad it hurts
so go ahead and lie and
keep moving on and
its all about yourself and
you're never wrong
i'll watch you crash and burn

btw. i bought evangelion dvd. four cds. $49.90. eurgh. haven't even watched finish yet. feel so depressed when i watch it though [?] maybe cos gendo refuses to acknowledge shinji. or that everyone is gonna die in the end except shinji+asuka. no fun. how about ayanami? mpf. they bcome the next generation's adam and eve. so cool. and better. exactly according to the Bible, New Testament, Revelation 16:16 [i think]. armageddon was at hebrew there. got mention dead sea scrolls too. mm. i don't understand some bits still. thats why i want read the bible. gaah. its written by humans strangely? how can they predict the future. [i mean, read New Testament la. will the world really end at hebrew.] the Dead Sea Scrolls are proof for the Old Testament but how bout the future. i think its glitched. dan brown's da vinci code is subtly proving parts of the bible wrong. hmm.

you're never wrong and you'll keep moving on.

2005-05-18T17:27:00.000+08:00

i'm so vile
while
you're a saint?
tests over then reality hits me smack in the face? that my results are like, uh-oh catastrophe. gah. i know i must work hard and stop slacking but why issit so hard sometimes just to pick up that stupid chinese txtbook thrown on the floor? eliz words suddenly flashed back today making me wake up. hols. study. never thought i would say that. anyways. low-tolerance these weeks. eliz told me a lot of skeletonic stuff abt ppl. its so discouraging that _________ is blinkered. she's really quite good but..sigh. the other even more tragic heng she's not our __________.
s--wait. let's put it in a more subtle way-people who are sycophantic to others are darn peeving. i don't know why? maybe i'm prejudiced? but got quite a few that have the same views la. i admit i did feel a bitty bit of pleasure and definitely wasn't too apologetic when i did that. wish she'll get a life. i do this, she do it too. i say 'sly sucks big time.' give her one day, she'll be singing the same tune. bloody shit. i thought you loved sly? keep writing on the damned whiteboard your utmost dedication to your hero and cancelling every 'sly sucks' and writing he rocks? FICKLE CAPRICIOUS UNFAITHFUL little brat. you don't have to change your whole image inside out just to please people. get your own space. and like holy cow, you still accuse ppl of what, copyright infringements? like GO DIE LA, aren't you doing the same. people like you for who you are and not a 'perfect' image you strive to present to them. listen to this last thing cos i'm very fucking peeved that you push people around thinking you're queen of this world or something eh while everyone's down on their feet begging for salvation or whatever; get your own goddamned life, think about how you're breaking MY 'copyright infringements' before you start accusing others [the sly thing? tying up your hair? hello..], stop being a bitch to other ppl who you think aren't cool or what, fit to be in your little exclusive sucking up 'clique'.
get real if you want to be a prefect. you've got the worst attitude and temperamental behaviour i have ever seen bsides my sis. would you like to go counselling with my five year old sis maybe? cos like presentation; 0%. hold yourself;0%. easy-going;-100%. sucking up abilities; 100%. 'my mother wants me to be a prefect!'
get real. if that day comes, i swear pigs will fly.

2005-05-11T19:07:00.000+08:00

i won't have to run away
and you won't be there to say i'm not allowed to
one day..
one day.
write off today's home ec test as; FAIL! yay?
flute sectionals today. good. hit high Bb, went further to high C, then D, Eb, stopped at F. haven't tried G. realized i can't play any high notes in band room? its cold inside. flute contracts. i dunno how to play. outside then can. RO came over and was veh peeved with us [or was it with our seniors?] cos for this harry potter song we played it terribly. cos not familiar with notes. annoying. like we were um, seriously rhythmically challenged [were we?] wells. seeing from my perspective i think we were unfamiliar with the notes la. but whatever. seniors are always right eh. get real. maybe we were really terrible. but did she have to pick up a fight with our seniors. they'll probs think recruits are a pain in the butt to them now. nice of her to mind us but no thanks. make stuff more complicated. i found out that some of my seniors don't like her? looked so pissed. they quarreled. in front of three of us recruits. pretty badly. SL was like 'this is my section ok. not yours.' then she was watching my SL teach us secretly? freaky. where did 'one band. one spirit.' go to?

2005-05-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

why am i procrastinating? home econs test tmr. tell me how stupid that is. home ec test?! @&#*?^#%#! small mixing bowl. medium mixing bowl. large mixing bowl. what the fcuk? isn't it too redundant? and our teachers having nothing. better to do. make us study for this crap. mixing bowls! aren't they all bowls? kitchen scissors! call it scissors la stupid. like wtf? why am i doing this? in half a state whether i should study or just throw the whole damned book out of the window. WHAT THE FCUK.
i am peeeved in big big capitals. like this-> PEEEVED.
ra called me an hour ago. no good. told me um. um. sad stuff. it was funny but made me feel um. i can't describe it? empty. once again. gaah. suddenly realize i'm not the only one thats feeling like a wrong piece of jigsaw unable to fit in with the rest. there are many lost pieces running around lost and broken. maybe my situation isn't that bad and i shouldn't keep self pitying myself [am i? i think so.] and being prejudiced about almost everything and comparing with 6e04. 6e is 6e. sy is sy. cannot compare. i love 6e but maybe its time i move on. the first few weeks in sy were hell but now i'm trying to adjust. wells. adjusting. everyone's [almosst..] really very nice but..um. lets take the quote i saw on one of the upper sec's tees-not spiritually connected. no connection. nada. zero. zilch. but maybe what i need is time. to make uh. lifelong friendships.
but how long will i be waiting?
hello there
the angel from my nightmare
the shadow in the background of the morgue
i miss you.

2005-05-09T20:59:00.000+08:00

blink 182 'i miss you'. got a craving for that all of a sudden [?] odd.
anyways. today band prac. damn tiring. but what am i complaining for? missed so many band pracs cos of stupid jap already. sigh. high Bb. giving me big problems. gaaah. trombone section had to do 30 jumping jacks. so fascinating. veh interesting to see a particular sec3 jump up and down like an idiot? nyahaha.
i don't know what else to write. um. captains ball. won all matches. previous [two weeks ago maybe?] and now. so high. but maybe cos our team had height advantages all the time. not that we're good. wait. elaine has spanking snatching-ball skills but i don't think i do. i wished we could play gy. and BEAT them. so can prove wenhui wrong plahaha. stupid pok. look so extra on field still ick us. say my class very lousy. say again? come here let me beat you up. nyahahaha.

2005-05-08T22:56:00.000+08:00

i am annoyed! look at this;
sunday life! L14, reflect;
One [stupid] fellow admitted that he and his friends even had a hierarchy of girls' schools: "RGS girls, they're damn weird. Have you heard them cheering at sports meets? They sound like men! And not girly men---cave men [?! lmao. guin and lainey, are you listening?] Convent girls were the most havoc [?] while lady-like SCGS girls were the nicest to date, but would transmogrify into high maintanence tai-tais upon marriage [WTFFF?????!!!!!!!]."

i swear i will hunt this guy down and gobble him up like sushi.

2005-05-07T16:59:00.000+08:00

i've got it all
but i feel so deprived
i go up
i come down
and i'm emptier inside

stacie orrico. love her lyrics. can't wait for tmr. parent-free home for four days. brilliant.
realization time;
1] i think all my posts are a cwot.
2] i am NOT over jimmy yet. pug jelly!!
3] sam's mum is a pok. breaking pj AFTER they opened big gigs like sp? WRONG. WRONG. WRONG. and WRONG.
4] hachiji ni uchi e kaerimas. i am GOOD at jap chap6. boosting my low morale. not being ego.
5] my goodcharlotte cd case is missing. CRAP!
6] teh last song of gc's latest album-death version is eight minutes. damn cool. they pause teh song for one and a half mins and start another song. bet alota ppl don't know that. that song's hot btw.
7] house of wax; NC16. the jacket; NC16 [deborah, cry. nyahaha]. kingdom of heaven; NC16: crap. what to watch? i want house of wax! see paris hilton die! whoot! i shall try sneak in on tues.
8] small pizza from pastamania looks small but is big. deborah wasn't it fun? spaa-ghetti!
9] you can draw a gingerbread using a flower. but do not use arrows to point at...snigger. willa yes yes.
10] this entire thing i've type is cwot-tish. better quit now otherwise this list is gonna be long.

hang on. am i being sunshinish this week? yes. why?

TWO MORE FREAKING TESTS BEFORE JUNE HOLS!! WHEEHA~~

smirk smirk. i bet alot of ppl from other schools would like to kill me right now. this instant.
'i got two more eng tests-don't need to study-while you've got CAs! nyanyanyanya!'

2005-05-01T11:19:00.000+08:00

some people are just so lame.
eurgh.
ok. being prejudiced again.
nomb, i can't affect other ppls decisions.
it's their own perspective.
not mine.
yeah.

2005-04-30T18:00:00.000+08:00

hello?
i conclude the week with a word; BLEARGH.
thank you.

2005-04-28T19:42:00.000+08:00

just raise this topic that was on the chinese bao4 mi3 hua1 paper [no no no, i'm not turning cheena, we were supposed to read it ok]; BLOGGING; GOOD OR BAD? our group was teh 'good, very vehry gooood' one. kept sniggering when ppl frm the opposing team said it was bad cos they had a blog too ahaha. tehn i heard some ppl [or someone maybe? smirk.] say it wasn't good bcos of some crap. and the words 'get real. you don't have a blog so you think you're unique issit? or you cannot have a blog so you're being a big loser abt it ah. pok.' kept floating across me. hm. maybe i'm being prejudiced abt this la. ok. sunshine week. be NICE to everyone.

four seniors-all sec2s or sec3s only, pardon the pun-waved//smiled//talked to me [spongebob!] this week. yay they're finally beginning to accept us? as wonderful sweet recruits. bleargh. oh wells. one is still giving me+wh the xian3 look. a.n.n.o.y.i.n.g.p.o.k. smile more.

2.4km run tmr. twelve rounds. WISH ME LUCK.
ra, just in case wayne didn't tell you, if i die you get my bunny. look after it well pls. don't let mandi eat it up. otherwise..

2005-04-27T19:32:00.000+08:00

pug jelly split.
no more jimmy.
sp+gc ain't touring s'pore.
no more pierres sitting on speakers.
whyy.
jiahui think happy.
I LOVE CHINESE.
get real.
zi4du2 friday.
must study.
damnit.
how am i supposed to feel good?

2005-04-25T19:09:00.000+08:00

my Bb sounded not-too-airy today. better than last friday. horribly pathetic. couldn't play high Bb at all. loser. everyone could except me la. but i think it's cos i'm in an air-conditioned room? gah jiahui stop making excuses. anyways statistics;

april05-nine 'suicidal' posts.
november04- zero 'suicidal' posts.

i shall declare this week sunshine week: no depressed posts, no negative thoughts, THINK HAPPY. everyone is my good friend. bleargh sounds so childish. but oh wells otherwise i'll go crazy sooner or later.
jiahui BE HAPPY.

2005-04-23T17:23:00.000+08:00

An image of me, trying to rush through my life
Is it funny? Go ahead and laugh.

ayumi hamasaki I Am. i didn't know animelyrics.com had jap-english translations. anyways. a bit icked of blogging so i shall kaoani today.

2005-04-21T16:33:00.000+08:00

ello. napfa today. i got A for all the components cept incline and shuttle? stupid shuttle. D. i'm pathetic. can't even run properly. fell asleep in bus and missed my stop. got 5o something for my chinese CA1 too. ahahaha. issn't it wonderful. gonna die a really really bloody bloody death tonight. worse still i have to tahan her neverending self-centered babbles about how she loves chinese, how spanking and great she is at the subject, and how lousy and pathetic fool i am and subtly-how i deserve to be kicked out of sy. i love her. such an encouraging and lovely little girl. wish she would leave me alone cos i don't wanna hear her say that she knows me and that i should be always doing what she says. can't she spend her free time thinking of how to please and suck up to her dahling seniors rather than bringing me down? i think i might even resort to jeering her if she gets lower than me for geog. like SNIGGER i'll rub it in HARD. the pleasure of making her feel pain.
that was sadistic. i'm so sorry. i tried to give in but everything i say you just find a way to make it sound like i was born just yesterday. and i don't want to argue back cos its just pointless? that you'll never listen to me and that i'm always wrong and you're always right. hello? can't you hear everyone crying out; SHUT UP!

2005-04-20T18:40:00.000+08:00

wells so i'm restlesss, immature, messy, uncouth and selfish.
while you're perfect, jaded, smart and sensible.
i don't see any similarity between us so whats the point of bringing it further-i don't want to hurt you and you don't want to hurt me. but i can't stand you and you can't stand me. we can't be arranged. you could never change me.
say goodbye.

2005-04-16T18:22:00.000+08:00

pits of depression
stuck inside; lainey+hwee+gweeen+ra+na
why; cos we wallow in depression and are insistent pessimists in school
what we do; 'the glass is always half empty. never half full.' get the gist?
we love; moaning abt the teenage angst-basically school, friends, parents-well maybe thats just me and guin. and we love cheese. ok. jiahui shut up. that answer was so off.
join us; if you love doing the things that we do. and if i like you. ok that was SO biased. just jk.

2005-04-16T17:16:00.000+08:00

i'm HIGH. very high. two days since band syf but i'm still feeling high. after reading _____. although the syf wasn't including us recruits. seniors did veh well. spankingly well.

WE GOT GOLD!!!!!!

OH YEAH! WE ROCK~some recruits [incld me] stayed back. seven hours rotting in school [for some of us..]. plus RO didn't even return band key to office. everyone was so freaking peeeved when we found out abt it. amanda wanted to place her french horn in band room also cannot. desperation. sat outside band room so long. discussing what we should do. looking horribly pathetic as all of us look so xian3 sitting on the floor like beggars waiting for deliverance. the seniors ah sometimes veh pok one la. sigh. then conclusion time! me+wenhui+wenting went to kap while amanda+serene stayed in sch. it was pretty fun. study while wenting+wenhui keep giggling when acs ppl pass by cos they rmbered last time at acsi band xchange got some guy walk onto the stage looking veh 'cool' then OOF! he fell down. n___n big smiley face. it was so distracting la! while doing hwk i'll be mumbling '3a to teh power of 2 plus-' GIGGLE! AHAHAHAHAHA-frm wensquares [wenting+wenhui=wensquare according to their senior T___T diao.] so duh we didn't exactly get even a quarter of our work done. and didn't study for jap ca at all. we went back to sch at 630++ met up weth resta recruits and we were counting lighting.

serene: one lightning..we get bronze.

wenhui: two lightnings..silver.

serene: three lightnings..GOLDD!!!!!

all: YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYY!!!! SCREEEEEEEAMMM!!

wenhui: um..four lightnings..honours.

all: SCRREEEEEEEEEAM!! WHOOOO! the security guards will wonder whats wrong with us X___X

serene: uh. five lightnings?

me: maybe platinum ahaha T____T diao.

counting lightnings are very useless. uhh...ya. so yes we were feeling really boliao. then 7pm. very tense. we called jasmine and she sounded really high but didn't want to tell us anything. mpf. so we called majella. didn't answer. then brainwave! smsed beatrice! read;

lynn [sms]; beatrice what did we get for syf??!

waits..waits..phone LIGHTS UP!

beatrice [sms]; who are you?

everyone SHRUGS and go wth? we thought it was the answer! ahaha.

lynn; i'm lynn! what did we get??????!!!!

waits..waits..atmosphere veh tense..phone LIGHTS~!

beatrice; we got gold!

all; SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMM!! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG~~~!

this was how all recruits reacted when we saw the word 'gold'. even though we weren't there physically, we still prayed for all of them and was probably as tense as them yeah and YES! we won. not exactly 'we' but the main band. cos all of us agree its one and a half band. the one=main band ppl. the half=recruits. oh wells.

then main band ppl came back! they looked so high on the bus. big smiley faces. so obv they got gold la. then drumajor asked mainband to stand in front of us and went 'tell the recruits what we got?' all of us grinning at each other thinking 'gold la. we knew it beforehand already. smirk smirk grin grin.' tehn they shouted GOLD!! so loudly i think by now teh security guards already so peeved with us until wanna chase us outta sch la ahaha. after that was melodrama in capitals. many ppl cried. fascinating watching seniors cry y'know? cos they're usually veh cold one. nice to see that they're warm-blooded. unlike many times where...gah. anyways my eyes were kinda watering i didn't say i was crying ok. when we presented a prize to DM. a packet of potato chips. X___X evryone laughing la. then they all started doing three cheers for recruits and then you think 'eh. maybe they're not so bad after all.' it really felt so good. i felt so good. i'm sure all the recruits felt really good too. all the angst, doubts, fears, insecurities that many of us had been holding inside just washes off by their cheers. past. if you see any band ppl they'll just walk by pretending you're invisible. glass. present. they'll say hi in a warm way. many kept asking 'whoa. you guys waited for us frm 1.30 all the way to 7.30++ ah?' and when we go yes they'll be 'omg. thats nice.' [smiles] how about the future?

well..maybe i used to doubt it slightly previously but now. its true.

iloveband.

2005-04-13T16:49:00.000+08:00

scgs pastoral care: positive self-esteem

positive feelings and opinions raise out your self-esteem. examples of positive feelings include having self acceptance and confidence in your abilities.

negative feelings and opinions lower our self-esteem. examples of negative feelings include feeling inadequate and inferior about yourself and your ablilities.

i think i have veh low self-esteem then. i def don't have confidence in myself. self acceptance is uhhh. not likely. inferior abt myself is a big uhhuh. read my previous posts? how many times have i slammed myself eh.
anyways. today sucked. grump the whole day. keep reading museIII that i wrote yesterday cos i was freaking peeved and guin agreed with me again and again. maybe i'm reading too much into it, maybe i'm being too overboard abt this but why do ppl have to annoy you by using phrases you like? or your friends like? wtf. plus they think and try to be 'cool'. I BEG TO DIFFER. and i feel so trapped? overreaction and bitchings don't agree with me alot. NEITHER do whether-whos-richer stuff. i was so fucking peeved abt the pocket money per month thing. you know i was so freaking nice not to burst your beautiful bubble by telling you my monthly wage is two-and-a-half times more than you? just showing off to me your money while i bite my tongue trying not to scream. i'm won't stoop THAT low. please, change your attitude, get your OWN space, get out of my face. look, you're very sweet at times kay, but sometimes i'm so freaking peeved with you and what do i do? bite my tongue, roll my eyes, stare out at the window and look for squirrels. and stop acting. when you finally let go and BE YOURSELF, thats what's it. be original, stop copying me if you refuse to credit me. i don't mind if you like some of m'stuff, but when you copy mine and i go 'eh! that's my [thing eg drawing]' and you DENY, thats when i wanna scream and bite you. at least got someone veh nice that admitted! and it'll make me happy! that she liked my stuff! learn from her. cos i did.

i feel like i just gave a pc lesson on originality. oh wells. one more thing, scband good luck!
tomorrow is syf. i hope they get gold. honors. pray. sc band good luck~!